There are no accidents.

Make peace inside.

I’m at work and I’m listening to launchcast radio. I’m on the film score channel and the Godfather oboe is playing slowly, with an eerie Italian smell. It’s like they are in the next room, cigars puffing and hot pasta cooking. But I’m just in the office; planted in front of a window with a view of bright green trees. Even with the gray sky and transparent curtain of rain, they are still bright.

The office is silent; once in a while someone makes a comment about the rain or Alex’s broken jeep. But other than that, there is only the hum of central air and the photocopy machine powering down to sleep mode. Someone ruffles papers for a moment but then the clicking of my keyboard is pain-stakingly dominant.

I’m so brain dead today. I haven’t anything else to even say. le sigh.

Yes, its great to see Kristin Chenoweth, and YES, its fabulous to hug Stephanie March and Yes, they were incredible experiences, but... at the end of the day, when the mail still shows up with bills and the car is screaching in drive,
getting a day job, is the most relieving feeling a person can know.
( 8:oo-4:3o )

MagicBlue71 (11:48:05 AM): im awesome
TruXsjadoRolla (2:47:49 AM): wrong.
MagicBlue71 (11:48:58 AM): what are you, the king of awesome?
TruXsjadoRolla (2:49:42 AM): that goes without saying
MagicBlue71 (11:50:53 AM): can you prove it?
MagicBlue71 (11:50:58 AM): do you have a certificate?
MagicBlue71 (11:51:01 AM): a crown?
TruXsjadoRolla (2:50:50 AM): did jesus need a fuckin certificate to be gods son
TruXsjadoRolla (2:51:01 AM): no
TruXsjadoRolla (2:51:02 AM): he didnt
MagicBlue71 (11:51:25 AM): hahahahhaha
TruXsjadoRolla (2:51:05 AM): and like christ
TruXsjadoRolla (2:51:16 AM): i am undenably great
MagicBlue71 (11:51:39 AM): you win it just for saying that
TruXsjadoRolla (2:51:25 AM): i would have won regardless

i havent posted in a very long time.
since the last post i have:
Went to Carnegie Hall to sing (which can be viewed HERE.)
Met Stephanie March and hugged her, saw Peter Hermann, talked to Debra Monk, and took a picture with David Hyde Pierce. Yes. Wow.


This evening i told my mom i was going to work and i even had on my uniform. Then i got on the train with andre and we went to see kristin's 4 day revival show in NYC. The stage door was intimate and I got to laugh and joke with her. Plus I met Christopher Fitzgerald who was Boq in Wicked. I think I even saw him live. He was polite in person but I think he was really tired. He had a big role.

HEATHER: I brought Kristin my GALINDAFIED hat that i got at the big E to sign!

She was impressed and asked me where i got it. when i said Big E, shes like 'whats that???' and i told her it was a huge fair called Eastern States that we do in new england. Then... she took a picture with us!! i have pictures OF her and movies OF her but tonight i got a picture with her.

Picture soon to follow. It's not on my camera.

So this month has been celebrity filled and my lust for broadway has been savage. This year has been amazing. I'm broke but I'm doing my best and I'm TIRED AS FUCK.

We're gonna make it after all! da, da, da, da, DA!~ (throws hat in air)


Stairway to Paradise Pics:

Here is the FULL story of my THREE DAY adventure of seeing Kristin Chenoweth.
COMPLETE WITH VIDEO FOOTAGE OF THE CHENO.




kthxbye

Third times a charm.. right? RIGHT.
I went back, for one last look, one last touch, one last thrill. I had to say goodbye and I had to let her know.. that I was the one.. ME.. I left her that picture...

( its 4:37AM, do you know where YOUR kids are? )

**Video Coming Soon....

SO. I met her. GAHHHH! Thank JESUS!

So Evan and I went to the city on March 3rd to see the Cheno and we did student rush. Which was great because we got FRONT ROW SEATS for $55. I saw every bit of her up close and personal. I could see the fucking viens on her hands I was so close. The stage was pretty low to the ground. Only about three feet high. And our seats were about three feet from the stage. And the first act, with Cheno as Eve, she was on our side of the stage like 75 percent of the act. As she was singing, she was looking into the audience and she looked right at me... And I mean, she looked at me for like a minute. I was sitting there like telling myself, "dont look away Carolyn, dont look away, dont look away." It was amazing. We had eye sex, haha. It was so amazing. SO amazing. She was right there and I could see her. To be that close was truely a dream. REALLY.

After the show, Evan and I popped out to the stage door where there were a handfull of people. Some guy came out and said that Kristin didnt know if she was going to come out. Then he came back and said that she wasn't coming. She had another show to do in the evening and she was very tired. I. Was. Devistated.

It was a wonderful day on the third, it was warm and beautiful and I got to sit front row... So that was pretty exciting but... I wanted to meet her. I wanted to like, hug her. So when I got home, (knowing the show closes the 11th and all chances of meeting her are gone after that), i scowered for someone to go with me. Evan said he didn't want to spend the money to go back so I had to find a travel buddy.

Andre told me he had the next day off and so did I so at 11pm that night, we decided that in the morning I'd get back on the train and go back to find her. And I did.

Sunday, the 4th, we drove to Stamford and took the commuter for a bit less and got into the city. Andre hadn't been in 4 years and this was only his second time to the city so, i was so happy to take him and have him experience everything with me. Cus I knew how much it meant to him and he appreciates the city like I do. He loved every detail. I gave him the camera and told him to take pictures of everything and anything he wanted and he had a ball. We had sooo much fun running around the city I couldn't have asked for a better city companion. He loved the buildings and the people and the colors and the shimmer of the sidewalks. It was great. I loved being able to show him all those things. And when it finally came time to get to the stage door, I listened through the cracks and heard Kristin singing. Then we got in line and when the play got out, people just came runnnning!!! There were so many more than the day before and we were jammed up against the fence with screaming girls and the man came out. He said no picture poses, but you could take pictures of her. And she stepped out and my GOD she is short. And I know she hates when pple say that and I knew she was short but she is the littlest thing in the world! She signed the first row of girls in front of me and when they moved I got right up to the fence and she signed my book and I looked at her and said, "Can I hug you?" and she said, "Yes you can!!" and opened her arms and gave me a big fucking hug!! So I turned and ran away, forgetting I had this picture I drew for her. So when I got out of line I asked Andre to go give it to her but she had jumped in her car and booked!! So, not only had she signed like a few autographs, I was on the ONLY one that got a hug from her. SQUEEE and more SQUEE. I cried my eyes out on the side of the road cus I was so overwhelmed. And my God she was soo little in my arms. She came up to my nose!

After that Andre and I went into the theatre and gave my picture to a worker there who said she was DEFINATELY get it. He said she'd get it Tuesday when she came into work. So we left it with him, my name and address on the back and headed out.

We headed back to times square where the sun was starting to set and the lights were getting brighter. We crossed roads and looked up the streets and smiled. We stopped in the M&M's mega store and Toy's R Us and Andre took pictures of everything. It was so cool to share the experiences with each other. His was missing and loving the city. Mine was meeting my idol. It was a perfect exchange.

After asking a few people to take our picture and cramming in what we could before we had to go, we headed to grand central and hoped two different trains cus one was the express, and we looked at our 200 pictures and headed home.

It was one of the greatest days of my life.


CHECK OUT MYSPACE FOR PICTURES!!

happy valentines day, losers.
thats right, i said it.
want to give me a heart?
kiss my butt!
maybe your lipstick will form that loving symbol.


oh snap! lol.

hi friends!
i used to write a lot of fic for this community but ive slowed down quite a bit. i do, however, have a new FanVid I made. Check it out, its my first AO but not my first Vid. Check out my whole youtube channel. It's insane!!!

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Banks, Nicholas

Niantic - Nicholas A. Banks, 19, died unexpectedly Jan. 26, 2007 on Fishers Island, N.Y.
He was born August 19, 1987 in Auburn, Calif., the son of David Banks and Linda Banks.

A 2005 graduate of East Lyme High School, Nic was an aspiring carpenter employed on Fishers Island with his dad.

Calling hours will be Friday from 5 to 8 p.m. at the Thomas L. Neilan & Sons Funeral Home, 48 Grand Street, Niantic. The funeral service will be held on Saturday at 10 a.m. at the Flanders Baptist Church, East Lyme. Burial will be private.

A full obituary will appear in Thursday's edition of The Day.


Published in The Day on 1/30/2007.

RIP Nic. All my love goes to Candace.

Happy Holidays My Friends!!
Merry Christmas and Happy 8th Night of Hannukka!

My girl, Allie, gave me this book for christmas... "POST SECRET". Ever heard of it? If not, you can go to www.postsecret.com. It's where pple from all over the world, send in post cards of their deepest and darkest secrets. some are funny others sad. but i just came across LJsecret. its the same idea, only online. The fanbase is intense!

So I want YOU to reply to my post with YOUR secrets. Please!? I think it's fun. I'll start by posting my secret under the cut. For your privacy, or just post it anonymously, unless you dont care.

( I WANT YOUR SECRETS! BE CREATIVE!!!! )

IT'S CALLED, "GLINDA ATTACK AD"
i made this shit too.